A Reminder: Grief

To this day, whenever I meet someone I want in my life, they instantly become part of me. He was just part of me and still is. It was June 8, 2006, he broke up with me in the hallway of our high school before my last class of the day. I remember holding in my tears until I got home that evening. He introduced me to grief. I spent about a year plus mourning our puppy love until my grandmother passed in 2007 which took it to another level. For years I thought to myself, I was only a teenager, but I was evolving into the woman I am now. Learning how to carry everything the world harms you with including grief.

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Mood

It’s that time of year again. I throughly go through my chest of drawers and closets in my apartment to discard anything that I haven’t touched in months or looks like clutter. I think about the colors around me and immediately change the color scheme. It’s like nail polish, you choose it based on your mood. Despite the white, I wanted something bright to add to my darker mood. My love/hate relationship with New York City does this to me. It just feels right to always want to change something, since it will always be a forever changing city, I may as well change too.

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In a new relationship

55A10BCF-A89A-4FC4-9246-E0DC4B8DE0A4….with money. I have these weekly to-do list that start or end with something that I’ve had on a previous list that I contemplate regularly. The last 5 list have included my “budget”. Reviewing it, changing it, updating it, until this morning – I completely scrapped it. Let’s talk about it, because I’m ready. I hinted most of this blog that I have money issues, I mean who doesn’t? But the issues that I claimed my own, weren’t actually my own, and I decided this last year. Continue reading “In a new relationship”