A Reminder: Grief

To this day, whenever I meet someone I want in my life, they instantly become part of me. He was just part of me and still is. It was June 8, 2006, he broke up with me in the hallway of our high school before my last class of the day. I remember holding in my tears until I got home that evening. He introduced me to grief. I spent about a year plus mourning our puppy love until my grandmother passed in 2007 which took it to another level. For years I thought to myself, I was only a teenager, but I was evolving into the woman I am now. Learning how to carry everything the world harms you with including grief.

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Yeah, that stage

IMG_3972I once believed that I had an unhealthy love for YouTube families and the bridal bliss column on essence.com. I used to joke and tell friends & family that I didn’t  see myself getting married or having children; Although, I still feel a sense of panic when I’m watching weddings or labor & delivery videos, sometimes I wonder if it’s my desire to give the life I want to lived or just to say I’m finally living the life I’ve dreamt of, or maybe I just want it all with you[him]. Continue reading “Yeah, that stage”

No Easy Feat,

Resized_20200224_155003This morning I was supposed to rise next to my partner in sunny California. Preparing myself for yet another round of interviews to finally make my mark in my “new city”. Instead, I was at the post office on 138th and 5th avenue in Harlem, mailing the keys that once opened his doors to me. The emotions were surreal. I swallowed back tears and looked away from the cashier as she placed a stamp on the envelope that I sealed the day before. Continue reading “No Easy Feat,”