There is so much beauty in the photo above but more disturbing were the sea flies that were chewing on my legs during this impromptu photo shoot. Continue reading “JONES”


Intentions and Goals


Yesterday, I received a text from my cousin reminding me to journal because of the eclipse. Over the last few days I’ve been trying to find something to put on paper. My emotions are on high, my heart is extremely soft, my vulnerability is evident, and I’m honestly overthinking shit.

I sometimes just want things to move smoothly but not perfect. I try to think this way with almost everything but with September approaching and being a very crucial month, I’m on eggshells. I just want it to be smooth. However, for things to move as smoothly as possible I need to work out some intentions and goals for the last few months of the year. It’s imperative for me to see all these intentions and goals through to my next steps. Continue reading “Intentions and Goals”

Hello May

Hello May! 
For personal reasons, I’m ready for you to end.  
I ended April by taking a random day trip to Maryland for business/family visit. I seen my niece for the first time and lets just say that we’re best FRIENDS! Leaving New York City is teaching me everyday that living here is not forever but will always be home. I’ve been super planning since my return. Let’s just say I’m aiming for Summer 2018 to move my life, it’s time.
Now that school is “almost over”, I am able to do some well needed research on self care and wellness. I’ve read somewhere that it is normal to need human touch and I sure did get a Swedish massage this morning because it’s the closest thing I’ll get to human touch for awhile. Lordt knows I needth that massage!
I deactivated my personal social media accounts to give myself a well deserved break. I need to focus and I hate to be distracted. I’ll admit, the lying on social media sometimes gets me, at times I think that I missing out or messing up. Taking this break is teaching me again to TRUST GOD’s TIMING.
Seeking another domestic location to see. If I back track, ATL, NOLA, TEXAS, and The BAY are on the list. Maybe ATL in June and The Bay in July, Texas in August, and NOLA in September, it’s an idea, we’ll see.

New post coming soon, any plans for May?

Hotels make me tired

It’s the ending of the semester and I’m stressed. I’m stressed because of a course  that I’m not fond of. Why? Because it doesn’t interest me, it was completely my choice to take so I shouldn’t be so upset about it, and I need the credits.

I’m a few days shy of my 28th birthday. Although I’m not celebrating, my college gave me a travel award and a two night stay in Albany, NY to attend a wellness conference. I took it and decided to call it a celebration. Instead of utilizing the time to do the activities at the conference, my body went into shut down. I slept like a baby for most of the first day. I needed the sleep since the last couple of weeks my sleep pattern had been off. But there’s something about a night in a hotel that changes everything. 

While I waited to call a taxi so I can transport out of Albany back to New York City, I’m had this awful garden salad, with all kinds of extra shit, and some of the vegetables were old. 

As I gear up for the upcoming birthday, I thinking about all the post I’d like to get in this month. I’ve been working on my Minimalist post, my journey to minimalism. Just something to share in my twenty something years I guess. 
How do you feel about hotels and what’s on the agenda for April?

Rediscovering Peace: Running, again

Besides the tall dark and handsome father that walks his son to the bus that stops at the corner of my parents block, at approximately 7:15 AM, clean shaved, standing at 6’3, suit and tie guy, slim figure, checking his phone, wearing is wedding band, yes, I started running again.

I said I wanted to exercise more a few posts back, but with all the interviewing, school preparations, and altering my life to get out of my emotions because of the end of July, I didn’t make it happen this past August.

However, when I am determined, I am determined. By the time you see this, I should be at 12+ miles for the month. I run five times a week and a little over a mile each of those days.  It’s hard keeping up with it but I see the difference. My glut and my abdomen is tighter, which is what I want for wedding season, you never know, I might find a man.

A few years ago when I started my weight loss journey, running/walking, helped release the stressors of my life. Lately, things aren’t as stressful as prior years, but running, has alleviated my stress tremendously. I am breaking some emotional barriers down right now, getting through some things, and trying to maintain my mental wellness; running is necessary.

I bought new pants, a new bra to support these things, and changed my sneakers. The weather is surely changing so I need to get more suitable active wear for the climate. When the air hits my skin, I come alive ready for the day, all the madness, my kids who won’t listen to their parents, the BS emails, the kids who are excited to show me that they’ve passed an exam, or the parents whom are combative about following the rules, all while trying to fit in a lunch break; I feel good.

Other days, it doesn’t change what happens in the mind but it gets me through the unwanted memories. It is what it is.  

Laser: I paid to remove my flaws

Back in November of last year while scrolling on Facebook, I came across an article of a black owned skin clinic in Harlem. They specialized in laser hair removal, waxing, and skin treatment.  Impressed by the reviews and the story, I never forgot about them, so I kept them close in memory.  I was interested in doing laser hair removal and wanted to be sure about where I would be spending my money since this wasn’t covered by insurance.
A few weeks later in December as I sat in a training for work, the clinic that I had previously found had a special for three laser hair removal sessions for a small area. Intrigued by the price, YES, I swiped. Anxious wasn’t the word. If in that moment, If I were able to leave that training and start my first session I would have done so. That day, I paid to remove one of my flaws.
My first hair removal session was on December 29, 2015.
I discussed having been diagnosed in 2008 with PCOS in 43 and Inspiration Maybe?, but never spoke about the one thing that I despised about the disease; un-normal hair growth.I could barely look someone in the face because I thought they were seeing the one thing that made me feel so small in the world, facial hair. I I tried tweezing, shaving, almost waxing, and ignoring the hair while staying indoors for days at a time in the comfort of my own home to avoid the maintenance. It was such a painful process to remove the hair because the face is extremely sensitive. I always wondered, what the hell would I do about this chin hair on my wedding day? How do I explain this to my husband? When will I ever admit to this in a relationship? Well, an unwanted touch of the face and the strong like for the last guy I was with in the beginning of our relationship, I had to talk about it. He was the first guy I discussed my facial hair flaws with, but he was patient and understanding, Lawd I love him for that.  His patience wasn’t enough for me. 
I made it to my appointment every six to eight weeks an hour early. I wanted this thing gone for good. Just talking about this make my feel small. But now that its done, well with routine visits every six months, it doesn’t feel so bad.
If you’re interested in laser hair removal, here are some tips;
  •  Try to start sessions in the later months of the year, the less sunlight the better to protect your skin from hyper pigmentation.
  • Avoid sessions around your menstrual cycle, the body is very sensitive during that time, and the laser can be painful.
  • Continue using Sunscreen even after the two-week period after your session, protect your skin as best as you can.

My last session was today. One flaw down, 99 more to conquer.