Me – Page 21

Spoken Truth

I woke up this morning wearing my heart on my sleeve. And it’s clearly broken.

For once I don’t want to be strong. I want to let go of these emotions that I’ve been covering up behind my greatest feature, my smile (besides my hair). Well from today on I will cover my wounds and allow them to heal until they become scars.

The point of this is, we tend to care about what others think of us. Just a couple of weeks ago, my best friend and I were having a conversation about a friendship that I openly decided to continue although the circumstance of how it had temporally ended for the majority of the summer was one that would make you rethink the friendship. During our conversation, I had said to her that I had suspected that the person was raving to the world of my personal business I felt comfortable sharing with her. My best friend then asked me ” How can you be so nonchalant about her telling others your business?” My response was merely, “I rather people know the truth about me then a lie”.

No one should be afraid to be who they are and to hide from the truth. And today my truth is I am heartbroken and yes I will be in the gym in the morning and having ice cream later that night

Male and Female Friendships…

Happy October Loves!

I’ve been on the move. Trying to change things in my life that are unnecessary to my health. Pretty much to sum that up, Things that shouldn’t be stressing me I’m throwing out the window. I’m ready to pack all that last season shit up!

Ok on to a more serious topic, Is there really an issue with Male and Female friendships? Yes, I have a male BFF. I don’t see an issue with it but everyone else has an opinion about it. I met him about 4 years ago through my brother. But we’ve grown to have a much closer relationship then him and my brother have. I share some of my secrets with him and so does he. We’re so cool that we can just lounge around the house. The issue is that everyone else feels like he is in-love with me. This I honestly don’t see. I know that in some cases the male and female relationship thing doesn’t always work out because I’ve had one male friend that asked me to ~~marry~~ him, one whom confessed his love to me, and another after many years actually wanted to be in a relationship with me. Yup, three different men, all in which I don’t see anything with, and maybe because I know TOO much.

I’m not too sure if I can date someone that I have conversations with about what he does with other woman and how he switches up woman all the time. And maybe because I’m just positively sure he’s not ready for a relationship is the reason he’s still playing around, but I’m not even sure I could trust him after knowing so much. And to make it clear he’s attractive, but not enough for me to look at him in that light I guess. We’re cool.

This question is coming from all of this,

My Mother, ” He’s in-love with you, but you don’t give him the time of day”
My Father, “Where’s your boyfriend?”
My older brother, “You’ll marry him one day”
My brother (his friend), “That’s your boo”
My Sister, “Where’s your husband?”
My friends, “You might not see it now but later on you’ll be with him”, “Girl, he’s secretly in-love with you”, “Tell your boyfriend I said Hi”

Ok seriously, Eww.. Is there really an issue with male and female friendships?

Good bye June, Hello July!!!

I’m a hot mess sorry. I haven’t written a post since May and for reasons I couldn’t begin to state. But I’m back and I’m here to stay. I wouldn’t want to use my blog to complain about every day things in my life, although I should use my blog for my personal reason, but I’ve learned over the last couple of months that somethings are better left unsaid. I come to realize that it is absolutely okay to completely cut people off, say no, ignore calls, when I’m upset keep it to myself, treat myself, go out more, and be more about me! I’ve been through some tough times these last few weeks. I’ve reconnected with some old friends, made new ones, and lost some.

Just these past few weeks have made me a much better person regardless the circumstance. Its just a part of my hiding. So please bare with me things will be much different believe me. I’ve been checking on all of you. I have a lot more to come loves! Summer is here!