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Random Thoughts

Currently at work. -_-

Forced myself to get out of bed this morning, but I made it to work a little early. Thanks to that express train to the city. My cousin’s blood pressure was through the roof and due to my anxiety, I made sure he was alive every few hours. 240/118, he has to do better. I’m probably going to try and discuss with him about having better eating habits because as my mother would say in her accent ” mi cyan badda”.

Listening to T- pain – Can’t believe it, because that’s what is in rotation. I’ll listen to a few podcast while I complete paperwork.

Feeling weird, Because I am in my feelings. Maybe because I am hungry and tired. Late nights, early mornings.

Anticipating my birthday in April, but I will be disappointing some people because this birthday trip may not happen. I have something that keeps resurfacing that I need to take care of immediately. It’s so important that I may not go anywhere for the next year or two. But maybe I’ll ask a few friends to have dinner with me. Something intimate, I love small dinners, gifts and flowers. I’m a sucker for flowers.

Ready for my third wheel trip to Philly. Hopefully I can get a Philly cheese steak. It’s been a long time. Hopefully we party and Rihanna – Work comes on and I can whine my hips and then go back home to sleep lol.

Needing my roots in my life. If it weren’t for my third wheel trip to Philly this weekend, I would be in Brooklyn, dancing to old school Reggae. But I’ll be there in March for Retro Reggae first Saturday’s. There’s a few places close by me where I can get the environment and music but they’re usually hosted on Sunday’s. I need to be in bed by a certain hour.

Hoping that I am satisfied with my grades this semester. I did well last semester but I want to ensure that I do better. These classes consist of a lot of reading. I am happy about that. I am learning. Love learning something new. I had hopes of starting my yearly reading but that may have to wait til summer due to all the reading for school.

More about school, graduation isn’t near but I am excited and scared. I guess I want it so bad, and now that it’s near yet far, it’s bittersweet. If I continue on the track that I am on now, it will be about a year and a half from now. It’s terrifying because I know that major changes will happen once I obtain my degree. Change is scary. But it will be a milestone that I have accomplished and push me into my next big step in life, which may be moving to a new city, and starting my masters there but that’s for later conversations.

Any random thoughts?

Mind over matter

I’ll keep this short and simple.

I was suppose to start my January with resolutions but, I was overcoming other things.

I haven’t been drinking water as I said I would.

I went to the gym once in January, on the 31st.

I’m okay, at work for now, but I’m playing my cards right.

I am going to be positive this month.

I would love to run but my gluteus hurts. Maybe if the weather lighten’s up, I can run in Philly over the weekend.

This too shall pass.

About last Friday….

Cliché to do the new year / new me post bullshit but there’s no new me. I’m just adding to the manuscript.

It’s almost a week into the new year and beside drinking water like I said I would, I had no problems recently saying how I feel to someone whom maybe I shouldn’t even had given attention to. It felt good though.

Beside my sadden Sunday, I actually enjoy sitting alone at happy hour. It’s better than purchasing my own bottle and drinking my sorrows away, that I don’t believe in, happy hour allows you to drink what you can afford. But I enjoy sitting at the bar reading through archives of my favorite bloggers. Some of you are connecting with me. It’s almost spiritual. It’s also giving me an opportunity to plan out my move, hopefully by the beginning of next year. New city, new “me” (maybe).

I didn’t want to be alone for New Year’s, well since I have never really brought it in by myself anyway, I jumped up and brought it in with my two amazing long time friends at church. Church is always good. What happened after church, well, I didn’t do anything strange for some change. I came in at a reasonable hour. Slightly inebriated. But I was good. And I looked good.

I praise myself about my 43 lbs. I need to tighten up my stomach but I look good. Yes, let me toot my own horn, (toot toot).

It’s been almost a week… What’s “new” ?