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Random Thoughts

Currently at work. -_- 

Forced myself to get out of bed this morning, but I made it to work a little early. Thanks to that express train to the city. My cousin’s blood pressure was through the roof and due to my anxiety, I made sure he was alive every few hours. 240/118, he has to do better. I’m probably going to try and discuss with him about having better eating habits because as my mother would say in her accent ” mi cyan badda”. 

Listening to T- pain – Can’t believe it, because that’s what is in rotation. I’ll listen to a few podcast while I complete paperwork. 

Feeling weird, Because I am in my feelings. Maybe because I am hungry and tired. Late nights, early mornings.

Anticipating my birthday in April, but I will be disappointing some people because this birthday trip may not happen. I have something that keeps resurfacing that I need to take care of immediately. It’s so important that I may not go anywhere for the next year or two. But maybe I’ll ask a few friends to have dinner with me. Something intimate, I love small dinners, gifts and flowers. I’m a sucker for flowers.

Ready for my third wheel trip to Philly. Hopefully I can get a Philly cheese steak. It’s been a long time. Hopefully we party and Rihanna – Work comes on and I can whine my hips and then go back home to sleep lol. 

Needing my roots in my life. If it weren’t for my third wheel trip to Philly this weekend, I would be in Brooklyn, dancing to old school Reggae. But I’ll be there in March for Retro Reggae first Saturday’s. There’s a few places close by me where I can get the environment and music but they’re usually hosted on Sunday’s. I need to be in bed by a certain hour. 

Hoping that I am satisfied with my grades this semester. I did well last semester but I want to ensure that I do better. These classes consist of a lot of reading. I am happy about that. I am learning. Love learning something new. I had hopes of starting my yearly reading but that may have to wait til summer due to all the reading for school. 

More about school, graduation isn’t near but I am excited and scared. I guess I want it so bad, and now that it’s near yet far, it’s bittersweet. If I continue on the track that I am on now, it will be about a year and a half from now. It’s terrifying because I know that major changes will happen once I obtain my degree. Change is scary. But it will be a milestone that I have accomplished and push me into my next big step in life, which may be moving to a new city, and starting my masters there but that’s for later conversations. 

Any random thoughts?

Weekend Wrap Up

Due to Twitter and Facebook, I am annoyed with what I have been seeing. I decided to go on an Instagram break, which has been happening since November but I should be deleting that soon but I’ll come back in February and then decide after. My weekend consisted of laundry, applying for jobs, and rest. Well needed. I purchased a frame to hang my art work in, check that out on IG, in February.

But to start my rant,
First, the shit written article about Black Girl Magic and publish on ELLE online. Next time that journalist decides to write a piece discussing her views on her own black girl magic and mental health issues, she should put in a disclaimer. Her views are valid because their her own. HOWEVER, you do not stand for every black woman. Black Girl Magic isn’t a slogan made to overly empower the idea of the “strong black woman”, but it was meant to help our girls understand that in the world we live in, you are special, you have magic. When you think you can’t, you will, there are others that you will look too that have made it because they have magic too. We’re magical! However, this is my view on it. Yours may be different, that’s my disclaimer.
My second rant goes to the journalist, whom once again, must utilize her disclaimer rights about Monique Pressley. See here’s the thing, you will not discredit her for being a defense attorney. She isn’t here to defend the victims, and by all means, her job is to utilize the justice system to ensure the rights of her client! I am glad that the victims are free now. They were able to let go of such pain, but I will not let this journalist discredit Monique Pressley. Nah bruh, we don’t know the trials and tribulations she personally has gone through to gain her success before COSBY. He’s his own individual. Now about the rape culture, “we”, as in many Tyler Perry Films, Shonda Rhimes episodes, “us”, in our communities, as BLACKS, think it is TABOO to discuss rape when it happens in our homes, but I’ll wait. Talk up when that shit happens. Share your story. I have read some stories and they weren’t easy ones to digest but they have helped other women.

Lastly, this one is personal. I hate my employer. Well not the agency but the administration that I am operating under. Bad enough that I am in a highly stressful position, but there’s nothing worst than Drama. Un-needed, unnecessary, too fcuking old for this shit, DRAMA. The clients give us enough DRAMA, why personally give more. I am in a place in my life where I seek stability. My career isn’t as stable as I would have hoped for it to be at this age but I need a stable place to grow while I complete my degree. But this isn’t working for me. I am now having to start the applying process again. I applied for a position last night and interviewed today, maybe the DRAMA is pushing me where I need to be.
Anything interested over the weekend?