June wasn’t bad but it wasn’t good either as discussed in my last post. My current agency is shutting down and there is no official date. So I have to be proactive and get out of there immediately. So my search continues into July.
I’m late on a July post. Well my July has started as an emotional one. I may discuss it later. But for right now, if I seem distant, know that I’m trying to get through this change. Nothing more or less.
I need to refocus on my aspirations in this month. The time is now because things are about to become really hectic depending upon tomorrow. I am about to make a huge change that I’ll talk about in a few days. Crosses fingers.
Weight Loss |
I felt the need to stretch my legs yesterday and decided to put on my headphone, grab my arm band, and start my Nike training app. Looking at my stats, I realized that I had not ran in exactly a month. Shame on me. The level of stress that was taking place in June, I should’ve been running more often. But Its July, the weather is warmer, and I prefer it, so not running isn’t an option. Aside from running, I need to start eating cleaner. I really need to condition myself to eat food. I am content in cereal and tea. I’ll be honest, that shit helped me lose a lot of weight last year. But I can clearly do better.
He is my blessing in disguise, and without him I would’ve been crying a river within the next few hours. I ran into some moving violation troubles back in May. Dust it off, as if I could win this case by myself but I did not do my research. Lucky for me, a birthday card and some clarity, allowed us to speak again. Just last week while we were hanging out, during conversation he informed me of how big my troubles would be, and now I just used some of my savings to pay a lawyer. A few post back, I discussed the need for savings. Many American’s don’t have emergency savings. Something told me to get my shit together because it saved my ass. Now I am crying broke until I can rebuild my savings to a comfortable amount.
Growth and Patience |
I read through my blog and noticed that I am not as positive in some of my previous post. Which is not a problem at all. I love that I am as honest as I can be. Being human should be genuine. My twenties are nothing but adult issues that I’m clearly not prepared for. Even the things that I would like to change, I don’t think I would. But I say think loosely. Step by step, brick by brick, I am learning to accept it all. I think about all the positivity I do see but I cannot help but wonder what the negatives were. I want to know the deep, dark, scary parts of growth. Tell me your story. On days when it seems like I am stuck, I reflect on some of the scary parts, and realize that I must be patient with my growth. Anyone that isn’t patient with your growth, needs not to be in your story. I try to practice patience with others and their growth so I can better understand them. Growth is trivial to learning and understanding.
Wish me luck tomorrow, I’ll be in court. What do you have planned for July?