Category: Life

Day 9 of Honesty

Greatness,
I want it all! I want to take over the world. No doubt about it! I want my name to light up the sky. 
My best friend and I spoke the other day and I told her that some days I question my progress. I could never settle for the next ‘option’. I’ve always been able to seek my greater potential out of any situation. 
I think as of today, I’m in a place in my life that is ready for my moment of rapid change. Every so often, whenever my comfort levels change, I do. Gone with the wind, I sway as I seek the next best position. My potential is always greater than an option. I seek growth in everything I do. When I know that something is no longer ‘Fitting’ I’m gone. 
This has more to do with a career change, and I’m ready for that move.

Day 9 of Honesty, I’m too great for this shit, I’m striving for MVP.

Day 8 of Honesty

Alone,
I’ve always been a loner. My favorite thing to do is sit in my room in complete silence. Turn my phone off, no television, no computer, and be all by myself. But these days have been the ultimate anti-loner phase lately. 
I actually avoid my own thoughts. They put me in a place that I find myself running from more times than some. I’m never afraid of my thoughts but I’ve realized how afraid of my emotions lately. It wasn’t that apparent until someone told me how alike we were about our emotions. He would run like no other, I’d support his running yet criticize him in the same breathe. However, when it came down to me running, I’d be upset about his criticism. 
Not one person ever likes to hear the solid truth even when they know it. It’s human to have feelings and display emotions. What I keep telling myself is to stop questioning all these trials and tribulations. What is for me is for me. What’s not for me won’t be. So don’t focus on what doesn’t and do what you can. 

Day 8 of Honesty, it’s okay to be alone in thought, you are human Amanda.

Day 7 of Honesty

Hurting,
It’s never easy getting over something that hurt you. Lately, I’ve been spending a lot of time with friends and family to revert my mind about all that hurts in my personal life. Some days I’m sadder than others but then I think about all the love from my family and friends. 
When you’re passionate about anything, your emotions will run high. There’s nothing wrong with having emotions. It’s okay. This is what I keep telling myself. I’ve gotten over unwanted emotions time after time. But avoiding how I feel is what I’m trying to overcome. 
I’ve always been the type to avoid anything that can hurt me. But I need disappointment to teach me lessons, guide me to my blessings, and show me that life has it’s ups and downs always. 

Day 7 of Honesty, this too shall pass, it’s okay to experience hurt.