Category: Life

Tough

9:10 pm and I’m already in bed. 
Once again, I choose not to have dinner.
I thought that I would be all teary eyed today.
Not really ready to go into detail but to share a little, I had to make a decision to walk out the life of someone whom I love. I did it on Thanksgiving, which I wish I didn’t because now I’ll always remember that.
It’s been a week. Some days things are smooth, other days I am falling apart, and some nights I sleep like a baby. I am trying to hold it together which has not been easy to do.
This situation is teaching me about the things I should accept for myself. I believe that whatever is happening right now is God’s plan.
I chose to make a selfish decision but the other person had made their decision with selfish intent as well. But we are allowed to choose ourselves when it’s not fitting. I am a fairly understanding individual.
There will be more post, I am sure of this. Some might come at 4:00 am, when I can’t help but to unravel my layers.

It’s been a tough week but I made it.

GYM time

When your best friend is planning her wedding and gives you advance notice that you need to go into the gym, BUT, you get Starbucks instead.
Over the course of this year, I have been doing absolutely nothing to lose weight. I have maybe lost a good 15 lbs over the past year.
I am currently paying Blink Fitness for absolutely nothing, and I can not get out of this alleged contract without paying them out. Well now that I know my friend is planning her wedding I can use the extra cardio and put my money to use.
I am pretty active otherwise. I walk every morning almost a mile, so that does count as exercise I guess. I have been kinda starving myself but not on purpose. Is it just me or has anyone come home from work and despise the sight of the stove? Well there it goes! I just want to make a good cup of tea and complete some work.

Currently I need a distraction. That will be for another post, but now that the weather is getting colder, I can run like I use to. My semester is coming to a close and I’ll have a few weeks off so I need to get back in the motion of exercise so I can add it to my schedule. 

Any suggestions on toning? I think that I what I am ready for.  

12.1

The last month of the year.
I usually get all excited but this year has to go and quickly. I am ready for fresh and new. This year has been trying me to new levels. I have cried more times than I can count, I have smiled and laughed more than the usual, and I have prayed more than I have ever prayed before. This year has been a struggle.
Once again, I have been put in rehab. Not literally but figuratively. I have been down on love (Kelly Rowland voice). This year has taught me something new about love. We all aren’t for everybody. This topic may be for another post.
Although I haven’t been around, I am still here. Do I limit myself on sharing my experiences? Yes, I do. This blog was created for my personal journey. I want to apologize for my absence but I am human. It hasn’t been easy but I still document my journey in the note section of my phone. I won’t promise to be completely active but I will try to be more present.
December will be different. I am prepping for 2016.

My year of yes!