Category: Me

YEAR 28

I knew for a few months what picture I wanted to post on social media to let the world I’m another year wiser. Because we all become wiser when we are willing to learn and teach others about ourselves.
Reflecting over the year, there are a few things I can say I’ve learned and taught others;
Patience and Forgiveness.
I turned 28 on my way home from work on the 2 train and I smiled to myself because there was a peace that I had in that moment, like “Shit is good” kind of peace.

NOVEMBER



October was one of those months that I taught myself to learn from but forget. I compare October to elementary school. Why? Because I was bullied and if you asked me anything from elementary school, I cannot remember, and I refuse to try. October will be blocked out of my memory so if anyone ever asks me about October of 2016, I’ll say something along the lines of “pardon, who, when, not sure, next?”. Right.
Highlights of October:
Yesterday, I looked and felt like shit, but the cashier at the gas station (that’s always trying to have small talk) tells me how amazing I look without make-up, um thanks (I accepted his compliant). One of the kids in the shelter made me a basket for Halloween and filled it with Butter Finger chocolate bars. The last guy I dated paid enough attention to know how much I love them. This made my day and opened up my love reel.
Over the weekend, I actually went to the movies. I don’t like the movies but I went. Discuss the film? Nah. I have a lot to say but I will not be the one publishing a think piece.
Goals for November:
Budgeting
I made a major decision that completely compromises my peace of mind that allows me to save. Budgeting is a different story. Shit happened, and I choose. So, now that my money is different, I need to budget because other big things are in the works. I’ll be reading a few financial blogs during this month. With all the sacrifices, I’m actually blessed for this opportunity, even if my peace of mind is compromised. I’ll talk about all the big things that happened and are coming my way in December!
Exercise
I guess I shouldn’t bring this up but I gained 10 pounds (as per the scale in my parents house), and I’m not happy about it. Back to running, my Nike training app, and dieting.
Studying
Undergraduate. These are the busy months and two of my classes will be ending. I hustled up and decided to go full time this semester because from the looks of things, your girl should be finished by next semester. But it doesn’t stop, I’ll be studying the GRE for grad school in the next couple of months. Prayers until I get there.
Affirmations
“My ability to conquer my challenges is limitless; my potential to succeed is infinite”.
When I am highly frustrated, I prefer to be alone. I sometimes don’t know how to communicate my frustrations because I keep them in and when I do this, and try to communicate how I feel, I blow up. Every now and then, I’m reminded of my last blow up at the end of July that haunts me in my dreams. What I’ve learned is that emotional intelligent is learned and regardless, no one deserves my aggression. Which means that I still have a lot of growing to do. I apologize when I’m wrong but instead of apologies, I can learn to express myself better. So let’s just say, these days are frustrating and I’m exercising saying what it is that is frustrating me to my friends/peers, and it’s working. (Taps myself on the back) I’m just trying to break some habits.
More to Conquer 

– Amanda 

Good ol’ September


Can I share my day with you all?
I’ve been able to wake up at 5:00 am or 6:00 am without an alarm clock for the last few months until this morning. Little did I realize that it was raining. Rain makes sleep amazing. I wanted to get to work at 7:00 am but let’s just say I made it at 8:00 am.
Made a cup of tea; Lipton black tea with two sugars and just a little bit of milk. Packed my lunch, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and jumped in the shower.
Used lotion instead of coconut oil on my skin, because I was rushing, made the bed (because my mother lives in my head), put on my dress and thought damn, I can’t wait to have a partner to help me zip this damn dress up lol. I’m unsure why it was unusually difficult to zip my dress this morning, I have not gained a pound, actually lost a few.
Stepped in the office, no music, no podcast, and silence for a good two hours while actually doing work early because it’s a new month.
My energy is pleasant. I’m good.
Left for interview number one around 11:00 am, that turned into two interviews, and because I felt extremely positive about it, I took the scenic route to the 2nd interview.


And what would you know, the 2nd interview turned into two interviews as well.
See what happens when you pray, LOOK AT GOD!
Things I plan on doing this month;
Cook |
I’m going to be more domestic and cook. Lol I’ve saved so much money by making a casserole on Sunday that I’ve had for lunch everyday. So, I’m going to figure out what to make for next week. I have a bag of coleslaw but I don’t want to make coleslaw so I need to use it, any ideas?
Travel |
I need to use my vacation time so I might end up somewhere this month. I’ll surprise myself before my semester starts. Probably jump on a bus, but flights are cheap after labor day so maybe the south.
Read |
I think I said I would read 10 books at the beginning of this year. Hmmm I’ve only read 3 and a half. Yes, Half. Hopefully I can incorporate more reading at night, but I’m full time this semester, we’ll see.
Run |
I ran once for the month of August. It was a poor run because my breast was tender, and the bigger the chest, the more it moves. Very uncomfortable. I think I’m going to schedule my runs so I can’t make excuses. The seasonal change will have my body going crazy so I need to maintain my health.

Any September plans?