Amanda

The Adventurer

So for some months now, I’ve been conducting research and trying to improve myself to say the least. Examining my friendships, my relationships, my family, and trying to figure out who to completely get rid of and who to keep.

This comes from a little bit of exposure that I gained from my last relationship. I must admit, I have learned a lot being with that guy. The good, bad, and indifferent. But I can say that I have grown somewhat within myself from that relationship. I’m becoming an adult, finally. Lol

It had thought me more about the things that I am willing to accept and deny. Something I learned was that I never expressed myself when I had the opportunity to do so. Reasons why I share with you today my personality type.

Listening to one of my favorite podcast yesterday, they shared their results from this personality test. Currently studying psychology, I was aware of the science behind this research study. So I was all for taking this test.

Not to be completely accurate but there are things that ring true. For example, and will be for another post, I do not want to marry a man like my father. Mainly why I chose to date the type of men I do now. My last boyfriend is the ultimate provider type and plans, the complete opposite from my father, and planning is one of my weak points. So I seek someone who can take charge in that area. Not that I can’t plan but because of my views about the present, I sometimes don’t think towards the future. Which explains my theory on marriage? That’s for another post too. But I am going to work on my planning skills, this can improve.

Well, the relationship section is me to a T. I focus more on my partner instead of expressing my needs. I usually wait until its too late to say how I feel. Well, shit I’m learning. This is on my birthday list; I’ll sweeten someone up to buy the whole premium profile.

Take a look at my personality profile, what’s your personality type?

Random Thoughts

Currently at work. -_-

Forced myself to get out of bed this morning, but I made it to work a little early. Thanks to that express train to the city. My cousin’s blood pressure was through the roof and due to my anxiety, I made sure he was alive every few hours. 240/118, he has to do better. I’m probably going to try and discuss with him about having better eating habits because as my mother would say in her accent ” mi cyan badda”.

Listening to T- pain – Can’t believe it, because that’s what is in rotation. I’ll listen to a few podcast while I complete paperwork.

Feeling weird, Because I am in my feelings. Maybe because I am hungry and tired. Late nights, early mornings.

Anticipating my birthday in April, but I will be disappointing some people because this birthday trip may not happen. I have something that keeps resurfacing that I need to take care of immediately. It’s so important that I may not go anywhere for the next year or two. But maybe I’ll ask a few friends to have dinner with me. Something intimate, I love small dinners, gifts and flowers. I’m a sucker for flowers.

Ready for my third wheel trip to Philly. Hopefully I can get a Philly cheese steak. It’s been a long time. Hopefully we party and Rihanna – Work comes on and I can whine my hips and then go back home to sleep lol.

Needing my roots in my life. If it weren’t for my third wheel trip to Philly this weekend, I would be in Brooklyn, dancing to old school Reggae. But I’ll be there in March for Retro Reggae first Saturday’s. There’s a few places close by me where I can get the environment and music but they’re usually hosted on Sunday’s. I need to be in bed by a certain hour.

Hoping that I am satisfied with my grades this semester. I did well last semester but I want to ensure that I do better. These classes consist of a lot of reading. I am happy about that. I am learning. Love learning something new. I had hopes of starting my yearly reading but that may have to wait til summer due to all the reading for school.

More about school, graduation isn’t near but I am excited and scared. I guess I want it so bad, and now that it’s near yet far, it’s bittersweet. If I continue on the track that I am on now, it will be about a year and a half from now. It’s terrifying because I know that major changes will happen once I obtain my degree. Change is scary. But it will be a milestone that I have accomplished and push me into my next big step in life, which may be moving to a new city, and starting my masters there but that’s for later conversations.

Any random thoughts?

Mind over matter

I’ll keep this short and simple.

I was suppose to start my January with resolutions but, I was overcoming other things.

I haven’t been drinking water as I said I would.

I went to the gym once in January, on the 31st.

I’m okay, at work for now, but I’m playing my cards right.

I am going to be positive this month.

I would love to run but my gluteus hurts. Maybe if the weather lighten’s up, I can run in Philly over the weekend.

This too shall pass.