June hasn’t been the worst but it has been a month full of progression and understanding. Something’s acceptable, others I’m more pessimistic about. Change isn’t easy to adjust to, but it’s necessary.
This month I took a big leap. Applying for career opportunities, in other states and in other fields. What time is better than now? I had to re-evaluate my life and what is missing. If I were to think that life should be planned the way I once assumed, a lot would be missing. But I have nothing to lose but familiarity at this point in my life.
I love my family but I can separate for awhile. Gives them the opportunity to miss me. I have no children, no property, no major responsibility. My mother helped me with this. She made me realize this last February. Not under the unfortunate circumstances but I’m grateful.
Moving has always been on my agenda. But I get all scary and chicken out. But I must enter this mission and be prepared for what is to come. All long as I am confident, things will surely work themselves out.
There’s no better time than now! I want to get up and go get it! Shoutout to June for making me more confident!
I never really use any social media platforms to display the times that I am frustrated. I have said in prior post that maybe I don’t share as much as I think I do. Some emotions need to be directed differently. Sometimes I do not direct my emotions correctly as much as I’d like to, but I’m working on it.
Maybe I’m different, but I believe as we grow, all aspects of life shift with us; from our family, friends, relationships, career paths, and our well-being. We learn to adjust our energy to the things that are more acceptable for us. We choose our paths at some point or another. We DECIDE who to let in and what to walk away from. Not everything we choose is forever but maybe momentarily.
I might be in a little trouble with a few people because they do not understand what shifting your energy means. For me, if I do not like something or the tension feels unnecessary, I walk away and return when it feels balanced again. I will not fight, bicker, or argue otherwise. It took some time to overcome that form of expression. I have mastered that now. What I had learned from this is that energy can sometimes be wasted.
I am more of a momentarily person. I do not disappear for long. All I do is give space and time. Sometimes we need time to correct things internally. When you are left to work through things and balance your thoughts, your perspectives change. Usually, I allow myself to brainstorm; it helps to balance my energy. If I am aware that my energy can affect someone, I’ll give space and time, come around after I regroup. But lately some people don’t understand that.
Something’s are not understood but rather respected. Respecting the energy flow is crucial to growth and your well-being.
What are some ways you shift your energy?
From Snapchat to YouTube, I noticed that I was not the only person going through some things during the month of May. Feelings is an understatement but I ended MAY with a bang. I went out for memorial day weekend. Seen friends, met some new ones, and lived a little more than usual. It was necessary for me to just be free for a moment.
I am working on a lot currently in my life and I am left to do it alone. And rightfully so, you should do things alone, but I don’t have someone I could cry and complain to from time to time. I bottle a lot of it. Trying to come up with new techniques so I can overcome this habit. But some habits are hard to break, or, I’m not as sharing with others as maybe I should be. But this is a work in progress too.
For the start of June, I have slept extremely well. My doctor told me that I was suffering from depression associated insomnia in May. OH NO. I’m not diagnosed with depression but I had to get in tune with my energy. I ran a mile most mornings to get balanced again. Which usually does the trick. And yes, it worked well. So I will continue this to stay on balance.
It’s June! Almost summer! So I went through my clothing and shoes. Separated my winter items and replaced them with summer items. Organized my closet, my chest of drawers, and made sure my socks matched. I went in. I also organized a few things at work so my day’s end early and I am able to relax for a minutes before walking out the office. I feel much more relaxed now that I am much more organized.
Me time |
Today is Saturday. I lied to my friends and screened most of my calls and text today, while organizing my house because I wanted to spend today alone. Maybe two people could invade my space, but only those two. I set up a wax appointment and a Swedish massage for next weekend as well. I will start pampering myself more because I deserve it. Me time is imperative holistically.
Progress and Understanding |
Everyday I am working towards my big goals. I am a bit misguided yet determined. I think that everything, everyone, and every place we go, are for a reason. My progress is a path that is for me to understand. I am trusting my timing with everything.