I woke up feeling sad this morning. Laid in bed for an extra hour just thinking. Trying to figure out where my feelings were coming from. In that moment, I thought of a few things that may possibly be triggering, but realized that I am more mad than sad about them. I got dressed, made my usual cup of tea, checked the weather, and stopped in the middle of my room and said to myself out loud “I need to figure out how to get out of this, whatever I am feeling I just have to make sure it’s not true”.
Put my headphones on, opened my sound cloud app, sat on the bus (my car is for another day); I thanked and smiled at the bus driver as I exited. It still feels airy.
My cousin has a way of reaching out to me when I’m feeling some type of way, it’s like she knows. She sends me some YouTube inspiration to watch and I sign in. Scrolling through my subscriptions, I noticed one of my favorites returned to YouTube after a year. If you watched his stuff before, you know he’s a mood changer, and will bring your spirits to life, but this last video is different.
Depression is real. Sickness is real. Death is real. Life is real.
It seems as if 2016 has been one of those years for many. As the New Year starts, things are becoming better, but there are something’s that I am still fighting to get through. Do not judge a book by its cover. Learn to meet people where they are. Accept people for who they are. Do not assume. Ask question. Practice patience. Forgive others. Forgive yourself. Be vulnerable if you have to. Let your guard down. Ask for help. Pray.
We are all just going through some shit, be empathetic.