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Just Because,

This is nothing new. I usually always buy flowers for myself just because. It’s the simple things you should always treat yourself to. All day I’ve been asked, who bought you flowers? I like flowers so I buy them for myself. It’s as if they should always be gifted and I think only two men have given me flowers in my life, damn shame, so I’m not waiting on that, but it’s always a nice gesture. If gifted, flowers should be given with love, they live longer, trust me, I know.

Plants bring me fortitude. Through the madness lately, it’s amazing and worth keeping alive. I must have a patio or deck with a backyard so I can have a garden, whenever I do purchase a home.

Before making a very crucial decision today, I stopped at a vendor at the Bowling Green station in downtown Manhattan, purchased these pretty Dahlias. After consulting with my mother, which I do not normally do, making a very crucial decision, glad that I purchased these flowers to bring me solitude. This is a temporary fix but for now it works.

I’ll make a cup of tea or warm almond milk, take a hot shower, light a candle, turn my do not disturb on even though my hot line has not blinged since May, and pray before I sleep tonight. I think I’m closer to the “want” I’ve been praying for.

Today was a good day, I hope.

Currently

11:33 AM, sitting at my desk at work, reading blogs due to my printer having a network issue, there’s not much I am able to do today.

I am super hungry but my stomach has been bothering me for a few days now so I am afraid to eat food. They only have greasy Chinese food to offer where I am located and I rather not.

Listening to nothing. I decided that I needed some quiet time. Usually I’d be playing an informative podcast but I need silence. I am living through my thoughts right now and it’s a needed.

Excited about my upcoming trip to Washington, DC. Although I said that I can’t make any trips happen for the rest of the year, this is a local trip I guess, so the expense won’t kill me at all.

I recently looked over my expenses and praise myself for the saving I’ve been doing. I have a plan in mind for my finances, but with life’s everyday ups and downs, it does alter. However, I think I might be on schedule for the moment.

I’m not as amused as I’d like to be about an upcoming interview but I have learned to no longer turn down interviews. It’s needed for growth. It helps me practice my charisma.

Last but not least, I am working on a few posts for the month of May. April’s festivities didn’t allow me to do much on the blog. However, I’ll have more time in May. I’m doing one summer class and will be enjoying my summer as planned. Exploration NYC is in full effect!

What’s currently happening with you?

Random Thoughts

I am in my feelings. I am tired. I’ve been running since 6:45 AM. I did an entire tour of my facility in the wrong shoes. I left work to do my laundry. Went to 34^th street after to pick up a package. And now I’m fighting myself to have dinner or finish my amazing bottle of wine without dinner.

But I’m having a salad and I’ll probably end up finishing the bottle between completing my HW and Chapter 7 of Year of Yes.

My coworker received edible arrangements from her “boyfriend” in prison today. LAWD. It made me realize how single I was. Two years ago I went on two dates the same night Valentine’s day. SAVAGE! Now I’m making plans on what shows to binge watch while ignoring every text message from friend to foe.

My sister tells me that our father is worried about whom I’m dating and is hoping that I am not being taken advantage of. I have no problems telling him he should have no worries. I am not dating at all. But his concerns come from a deeper place, I am his “baby”.

I want to call one of my friends to express my current annoyance with a situation that has me at level 20 but I’m caught in between “not talking” and “wanting to talk”. Its an awkward position but I’ll opt for “not talking’. I do shut down well.

My feet hurt and I wish I had male company to rub these freshly pedicured feet. But nope, I’m not talking to anyone at all. Which reminds me that maybe I should’ve waited to get my nails done because I literally have nothing to do all weekend being that my usual maintenance is done on weekends. Binge watching on Netflix it is. I have to rethink my plans to buy my “kid” some shoes this weekend due to this weather. It will be 19 degrees tomorrow and he’s 9 months, I can’t take him outside. I could but I don’t know. We’ll see.

Well I think I am done for now. Back to this wine and completion of this HW.