Mood

It’s that time of year again. I throughly go through my chest of drawers and closets in my apartment to discard anything that I haven’t touched in months or looks like clutter. I think about the colors around me and immediately change the color scheme. It’s like nail polish, you choose it based on your mood. Despite the white, I wanted something bright to add to my darker mood. My love/hate relationship with New York City does this to me. It just feels right to always want to change something, since it will always be a forever changing city, I may as well change too.

It has finally registered that we’re in the home stretch to end this very emotional year, expect, only a few things are set to change. You know, things like political outcomes and the weather. But not much else. Some mornings I’m okay and others I find myself wanting the life I was living last year. I just miss human connection. I found myself wrapped in someone’s hug and I didn’t know I needed it. I’m not really a hugger but IT FELT GOOD. I guess that’s officially changed too. What I would do to hug some people again, but some of them are in heaven, God isn’t ready for me yet.

Currently, I’ve been trying to adjust to my new normal of everything being remote. Work – School – Communication. I found myself purchasing an iPad and setting up a work station to be able to do all of this from home (not pictured) and it’s a process within itself. I’m selfish for assuming that you all aren’t experiencing this too. Bare with me, I’m venting. I try to keep up with organization in my apartment to maintain a balance, some days I’m thriving.

Closing out the year, I’m looking forward to a getaway with friends in November, seeing my niece aka good sis next month, the holidays (it’s been awhile since I’ve spent the holidays with my folks), completing the first semester of grad school, and finishing this year stronger than I started. I’m conquering the year of challenge! What are you anticipating next?