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Currently: The WeekEnd

With all the drastic unplanned yet unmentioned things that have happened within the month, I want nothing more than to run away. There are things I can control and others I cannot. So I’m trying to limit the stress levels by accepting the things that I cannot control. Baby steps.

I’m typing this while sitting at a window seat on the Amtrak returning to Penn Station feeling melancholy about my return home. This is nothing new, whenever I’m returning home after traveling, I feel the same. But what I’ve learned in just a few hours is that, giving yourself space and exposure is necessary.

I attended a conference this weekend that I chose to participate in. I met a lot of amazing people, learned some new skills, shared my world a little, and slept like a baby in the king size bed that was reserved for me!

What I took away from the weekend:

Take a train ride, its amazing!

Put yourself out there!

No one knows your story but you, you’ll win and you’ll lose, but its YOUR Story. You define your success.

Live your truth!

Choose to be happy!

This was a good weekend. How was your weekend?

11:10 AM

Searching for a new dresser or I’m going to buy an old one and refinish it. I need to revamp my space.

Wanting to post about all the great that has happened BUT what I am learning is to keep things to myself until it is written in permanent INK.

Listening to Drake – Stupid in Love, why? Because it’s playing from my YouTube music app, never knew this song existed until now.

Missing out on Pink nail polish for Breast Cancer Awareness month. I have not done my nails since August. I’m not going through anything, just saving money for November.

I’m attempting at transitioning to natural hair. It’s been a year since I relaxed my hair. I’ve always been good at caring for my hair but I think this transition is going to challenge me.

I’m an Aunt now! Yayy, I say this with little excitement, because “The other love of my life” (Bradley, my one year old God son) is expensive. So, I’m not going to be able to keep my composure when I see cute girl stuff to buy for my niece, now to add her to my monthly budget. It’s a good thing I budget and I’m a good saver because lord knows these children are expensive.

Hopefully I can share my excitement for all the amazing things that have manifested in the month of September soon.

See you soon,

– Amanda

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Just Because,

This is nothing new. I usually always buy flowers for myself just because. It’s the simple things you should always treat yourself to. All day I’ve been asked, who bought you flowers? I like flowers so I buy them for myself. It’s as if they should always be gifted and I think only two men have given me flowers in my life, damn shame, so I’m not waiting on that, but it’s always a nice gesture. If gifted, flowers should be given with love, they live longer, trust me, I know.

Plants bring me fortitude. Through the madness lately, it’s amazing and worth keeping alive. I must have a patio or deck with a backyard so I can have a garden, whenever I do purchase a home.

Before making a very crucial decision today, I stopped at a vendor at the Bowling Green station in downtown Manhattan, purchased these pretty Dahlias. After consulting with my mother, which I do not normally do, making a very crucial decision, glad that I purchased these flowers to bring me solitude. This is a temporary fix but for now it works.

I’ll make a cup of tea or warm almond milk, take a hot shower, light a candle, turn my do not disturb on even though my hot line has not blinged since May, and pray before I sleep tonight. I think I’m closer to the “want” I’ve been praying for.

Today was a good day, I hope.