A look back…
2024 was rough.
The year started with family illness, my pregnancy complications, a bad car accident turned to caring for a parent temporarily, heartbreak, and tribulations.
But there was JOY. My son decided to enter the world on my last day of age 34. So we have milestones to celebrate going forward. My husband and I started individual therapy to help us manage ourselves better as we journey through family challenges, our son being in the NICU, to strengthen our relationship as we were now in different roles as parents, and we moved (I’m happy about this more than I realized as I am typing this).
Being a mom is fun and tiring. No one loves you more than your child, it’s such a nice feeling to be loved on without conditions – although you are their food source until you aren’t! LOL
I’m known to lack intimacy, and being a mom has brought out a softer side to me that I am embracing. My husband especially enjoys this because our intimacy has changed. Well thanks to therapy and listening more, I get to love him in a language that I now understands and one that speaks to him.
I’m back to work and adjusting to a role that I am uncertain about. The career conversation is a spinning wheel in the mind but sacrifice, insurance, and my family come first and I need money so, I’m sitting still for now. If I leave it has to offer me something worth leaving for. So I’m thinking through it.
Looking forward to…
Being intentional with everything!
Distractions are too easy. Life be lifeing. But I have to be intentional.
Financially we are okay but we can be better. The amount of money I spend at target, I should have stock! This has to change.
There’s food at home. That’s it.
My pregnancy has shown me how much my health has been in jeopardy. I need to work harder at getting better with losing weight. I miss outdoor activities and would love for my little one to love the outdoors the way that I do.
I’m ready to get back to normal. So much happened in just a year and slowly I am changing into this new version of myself that I am okay with. I’m learning to embrace it for sure. Like everything else, I am a work in progress so I’m giving myself GRACE.
How are things?
xx, Amanda
sheconqured.com 
Congratulations, mamas!!! I came to say thank you for your unwavering support throughout the years and want you to know how much I appreciate you. It doesn’t go unnoticed. You’ve really been riding with me since my O.G. blogger days so you really are like my internet cousin!
…but I completely missed this update!!! As a new mom myself, I tried my best to keep that part of my life secret/sacred, but I decided I didn’t want to be scared anymore and just switched up how I share and what platforms I share that part of my life on. It can be a little scary with everything going in the world and how society is set up and all that, but you know what…I know for a fact that God is protecting me and my family…what do I have to be scared of?
Anyway, I don’t mean to be long-winded, but I’m so happy for you and hope that you and your husband continue to thrive and strive towards bliss every day. It’s such a blessing to be a mom and I didn’t even think it was in the cards for me! Cherish the moments as much as possible because they fly by way too fast!
Ps- my little man was a NICU baby too! such a stressful time post-partum, but he’s here now, quickly approaching 8 months…happy, healthy, and strong!
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