Nothing has changed but my weight

IMG_9794In this moment, I would rather be curled up with the person I love because they smell good and it just feels like the safest space to be on Earth but I am gathering the words to type this post. I don’t know what to say or where to start, but here I am.

Let me be as clear as possible, nothing has changed. This year I didn’t really write out my thoughts and goals. Why? Because nothing has changed. (I lied, I’m working on limiting my swearing). I’m in the same place as I was a few months ago and I think it’s because currently GOD is working on my timing. I believe that the change is going to come somewhere around August when I’m aligned with my biggest task of this year, which is, MOVING again.

I want to blame my emotions for the feelings that I am feeling right now but it’s really my weight. I guess I was happy last year because I gained almost 20 lbs and now I’m suffering. My body is telling me it’s time to get back in the groove of things but my favorite Little Debbie donuts have gotten the best of me. It’s easy for me to commit back to exercise but it’s actually making the time.

I have a few more classes and I’m out of school until my move or until 2019 fall. School is still busting my ass. I’m in need of a random secret getaway but I have not convinced myself as yet. However, in the next couple of months, I’ll be taking my first international trip since JA 2016, details to come soon.

I think I am rambling and complaining and not saying much but at least I said something.

I’ll attempt to look past the under 20-degree temperature tomorrow and actually try to change the weight.

Happy New Year or whatever.

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Dear Diary,

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After reading old post from the last couple of years, my last quarter of the year will always be challenging. I think I came on here today to rant about everything that I am currently going through. Honestly, it’s not that deep because things can be worst and life isn’t so bad. I’m a sucker for change and I’m ready for something new. I had not been able to admit that until now. It’s Saturday night and I’m home watching YouTube and typing this because parties aren’t my thing, my love life is still dry, I don’t entertain anyone, my work week starts tomorrow, and I switched up my apartment for the season so I enjoy being home anyway. However, I do have a few things to release; Continue reading “Dear Diary,”

Hair Update: I’m not a Hair Blogger

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If you know me, you know I LOVE MY HAIR! Especially when it’s just done, like FRESH out the Salon done! It makes me feel like a whole new or different woman each time but it’s been a while since I’ve been to a hair salon because I’m transitioning to natural.

 

I think my last relaxer was right before I went to California in 2015.  Let’s start by saying that this might be the second hardest thing to maintain. What I’m learning about natural hair is that it is a scheduled and very detailed process.

 

So here’s the update:

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Complaining my way to Self CARE

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I’ve spent the last few weeks complaining. I called a friend, we met up for drinks, and I continued to complain. Through sips of my mojito, I asked her to be my accountability partner, because we all need one. But I shouldn’t need an accountability partner to realize that I need to be better about my self care. Continue reading “Complaining my way to Self CARE”

Hello May

Hello May! 
For personal reasons, I’m ready for you to end.  
I ended April by taking a random day trip to Maryland for business/family visit. I seen my niece for the first time and lets just say that we’re best FRIENDS! Leaving New York City is teaching me everyday that living here is not forever but will always be home. I’ve been super planning since my return. Let’s just say I’m aiming for Summer 2018 to move my life, it’s time.
Now that school is “almost over”, I am able to do some well needed research on self care and wellness. I’ve read somewhere that it is normal to need human touch and I sure did get a Swedish massage this morning because it’s the closest thing I’ll get to human touch for awhile. Lordt knows I needth that massage!
I deactivated my personal social media accounts to give myself a well deserved break. I need to focus and I hate to be distracted. I’ll admit, the lying on social media sometimes gets me, at times I think that I missing out or messing up. Taking this break is teaching me again to TRUST GOD’s TIMING.
Seeking another domestic location to see. If I back track, ATL, NOLA, TEXAS, and The BAY are on the list. Maybe ATL in June and The Bay in July, Texas in August, and NOLA in September, it’s an idea, we’ll see.

New post coming soon, any plans for May?